First I perceived the notes of an organ. In the background, the uncomfortable murmur of people, excited, nervous. None of those voices was familiar to me, but I continued to listen carefully. My eyes still weren’t reacting, just darkness.
Little by little I felt my hands, they linked behind my back, they sweated. Then I realized that I was standing, my legs were shaking uncontrollably. My heart was pounding, my breath trailing him on the run.
I tried to remember, trying to remember the last thing I had done, and what could have led me to that situation, but nothing, I could not find any reference to clarify my doubts. I felt confused, insecure, vulnerable, I came to feel fear.
Suddenly, the organ stopped sounding, people began to be silent, I remained motionless, more and more impatient. On both sides I felt the presence of two people, a third stood up in front of me. He began to speak but did not understand what he was saying, until he said my name out loud. Then my eyes were opened.
At first they were just blurred, indefinite shadows pushing their way through the darkness. Then I began to distinguish the light, the colors and the shadows took on human form. I looked ahead and saw a man reading a huge book aloud, he is the one who had said my name. As I still couldn’t understand him, I looked to my right and there was a woman, she was dressed very elegantly, she was crying. I turned my head to look at the person on my left, but on the way I noticed my own clothes: shiny shoes, impeccable morning coat, white shirt, cufflinks, sky blue tie. I panic.
I started to understand the situation, but it didn’t make sense. My suspicions were fulfilled when I looked at the person on my left. A voluminous white gown, radiant, precious, covered a delicate figure, whose face was covered by a veil, preventing me from seeing who I was about to marry.
The priest’s words became intelligible to my misfortune: “… in joys and sorrows, in health and in sickness, every day of your life?” Saying this, he looked up from the book and looked me in the eye. There was absolute silence in the church and I felt hundreds of impatient glances fixing on me.
I cannot specify how much time passed because I lost all sense of temporality. I had to make the most important decision of my life, without having the slightest information about the person with whom I was going to tie me up for life.
Even if I couldn’t remember it, just being in that situation had to be a sign that this stranger was someone very special to me.
I looked again to my left, my “future wife” looked back at me and I was able to reveal her features, she had black hair, a reflection of eyes that contained a very deep look; beautiful all of her, I realized that I had not seen her in my conscious life. The expression on his face changed when he saw me, he must have read the fear and doubt on my face. He took my hand to help me jump, but I remained silent and his eyes began to tremble like a candle flame before being extinguished with a certain blow.
The rumors and comments of the guests did not wait, there was my family, my friends, some of whom I did not even remember.
I felt like I had to give an answer and I couldn’t wait any longer. I took a deep breath, took a deep breath, and as the words faded from my lips, I woke up.
Onirology scholars say that if you dream of your own wedding, being single, it is a sign of favorable changes in your life.
Amen to that.
“Whenever I want you, all I have to do is dream, dream, dream, dream, dream, dream, dream, dream.”
